Really wanted to cheat all day

One of my biggest triggers is frustration, specifically job related. My job is not going as well as I wish it was (euphimism!!) having said that, it has sort of been a blessing in disguise, as it made me realize how much I love singing and how much I admire and adore the art of being an opera singer, and quite frankly how much shit I am willing to put up with and go through in order to fulfill my dream of being a working one...singer not girl, that is. It is the chief reason I have decided to try to drop a few pounds, but at the moment it is kind of a vicious circle, a particular event yesterday made me so mad I wanted to cheat all day long, I hoped I would wake up and feel some relief...no such luck...luckily I filled my morning walking the dog and IMing a friend who managed to take my mind off things for a while, and yes, I REALLY want to cheat today , but since white knuckling phase 1, I find the desire for sugar is still an ever present force, BUT my ability to reason through it is a little stronger, as it doesn't feel like I will die anymore without it, more like I will just live in eternal agony, which is a vast improvement ;)