Hit the magic 90 day mark

Okay sooooooooooooo, here I am 90 days in. the good, the bad and the ugly.

The Good

• No sugar cravings per se anymore
• Lost 16 pounds
• I have relatively good amounts of energy
• I feel pretty normal about food... well, ish
• My appetite is somewhat suppressed

The bad

• Only lost 16 pounds in 3 month, I feel like this is unbelievably hard work and that I should have lost 60-70 by now for all the effort. These have been the longest three months of my life!
• Weight loss is sllllllow. Yes, yes I know I didn't put it on over-night, but honestly I put it on faaaaaaaaaaaaar quicker than I am taking it off. lesson learned universe , now can we speed it along a little?
• I miss alcohol which is not to say I do not drink it anymore but certainly not in the copious quantities I would prefer to, and I REALLY miss beer, like REALLY miss it when I see people drinking it all icy and refreshing in the summer I almost want to cry

The Ugly

• 16 pounds?? Really?? only 16, I feel like I could eat that much butter in a single sitting.
• I am sooooooooooooooooooooo bored, there is only so much protein and greens you can eat without wanting to jump of a bridge.
• Am I really going to have to do this for the rest of my life??

Today was a good day.

After a year long wait, Fairmount Park came and planted three utterly gorgeous street trees on our sidewalk-they are just beautiful.... and I totally overcame a craving right in the middle of the store while I was hungry and bored...I substituted a very large steak for it instead. Can go to bed guilt-free. Yep, a good day.

Creatures of habit

I am really a creature of habit. As much as I like new foods, I eat the same things at restaurants time after time. As much as I like to see new places, I especially love coming home. I can watch the same movies over and over.

If I could, I probably would have stayed in South Africa and sung roles as a fest artist at the old opera house for the rest of my life , but that wasn't how things turned out, and luckily I got to make the US my home which I am immensely grateful for. Well I am in lovely safe place and routine now, wake up, work out, my honey makes breakfast, try to fit in lunch, go to work, have dinner then maybe a movie if we can. I am just so content to do that, ...now... rumble rumble he is going away for a few days. This makes me anxious, for many reasons, least of all, he is breaking our great little routine, and now I feel I will be at home left to my own devices. This morning I awoke feeling very bingey, so I am making a pre-emptive strike, blogging, going to have a very large legal breakkie, then make sure I work out, and also that I have dinner early. I am hoping all of this keeps the binges at bay, I am also inspired as I woke up a little lighter too...just a smidge but every smidge counts in the road to my Ipad.

Successful baking

Not been blogging for a few days, but still been trying to eat well. I have been pretty successful, I do not have a massive sense of urgency in all honesty, possibly because I have finally recognized that I will be doing this for the rest of my life 'ie there really is no light , read ice cream, candy, coke or cookies at the end of this particular tunnel. Losing weight this slowly is actually pretty frustrating(or has been a source of great angst to me in the past) until I think of the process which really hasn't been that bad. I haven't felt that deprived (with the exception of the first two weeks) and this weekend I made a sugarless plum tart which was a hit, even the boys liked it. I read that the great thing about losing so slowly is that you don't put it all on again quickly so that is very good news. I am down 16 pounds, only a measly 14 to go to glory and and my ipad ;) jk, I suppose I would have to lose 100 pounds for glory, luckily I don't seek that, just employment and a little ease with myself.

I am a mere 7 days away from the hallowed 90 day mark which makes habit changes official. Never done that before in my life actually.

Nature of my cravings have changed.

Last night I had a margarita...bit of a mistake, the reason being it is made with triple sec which has sugar in it... anyway had cravings all day, which I deserve...well maybe not cravings at first... at first I was just plain hungry ( know how that feels now)... what I should have done was eat a large meal of protein and veggies and a sufficient amount of fat, but I made mistake number one and had a small breakfast, I had a small lunch too, by the afternoon I was very twitchy and having sort of pangs... but the interesting thing, is before I would have craved tons of sweet things, today I just wanted some extra food, salty things in fact, which I ended up having, extra nuts and ww pita chips ... probably a little too much but eventually the cravings passed and I felt satiated. Tomorrow is a new day, so I am not freaking out, I can also say that if I work out, I seem to suffer fewer cravings which is just plain depressing as it is yet another reason for exercising...yeuchy.

I think I am starting to be a normal person....I mean, I'm not there yet, but getting closer. I can't wait. I think it is gonna feel really cool.

15.5 on 5/5!!

Yipppee, 15.5 pounds which means I am over the hump in my mini quest to lose 30 pounds, so that I can purchase a guilt free Ipad-my own computer keeps over-heating and shutting down, despite the fact that it is on a cooling pad constantly- I would love to get there before I go to France in the summer but I suspect that might be an impossible task unless I ramp up my workouts to far longer and far more intense sessions...shudder... would rather go the slow route than do that.

I think I might have a Margarita with salt to celebrate... yes somewhat counter productive, but it is my favourite drink, and it is Cinco de Mayo and one of the most incredible days I have ever seen in Philly, plus I have finished my work out, always the worst part of my day, and I am off to the opera this afternoon, with not even a soul to teach tonight...rock on!